Healthy Tasty Fruits & Veggies Juice Recipes

This morning I made my all time favourite mixed vegetable-fruit juice and the funny thing is, my dad asked whether I've put any sugar or added a little bit of honey to do the trick because of how sweet it is. I've been drinking these combination for years. I love to drink it in the morning right before I start my day. The sweet refreshing taste that goes through my body surely help freshen up my morning. Of course you can drink it at any time, it doesn't have to be in the morning. Many people prefer to drink their juice in the afternoon and it helps fill their stomach and prevents them from eating a big portion of meal. 

It is a simple and easy homemade juice made with Apple, Pear, Carrot and Celery (you can add pineapple or lemon if you'd like some sourness and it would still tastes as great). To make this, just put one of each ingredients (the apple, pear and carrot), a handful of celery and blend it all together. If you use blender instead of a juicer like me, cut it in small pieces first then don't forget to add a bit of water. I love this combination, the sweetness from apple and pear, the spice from the celery, and the rich vitamin A in carrot which is good for my blurred vision. Highly recommended for those who wear corrected eyeglasses.

Life lessons from "A world of Married Couple"

Being pretty doesn't keep a⁠ man. Being honest doesn't keep a man. Being loyal⁠ doesn't keep a man. Treating a man good doesn't⁠ keep a man. Being there for a man doesn't keep a⁠ man. Caring about a man doesn't keep a man. Paying⁠ attention to a man doesn't keep a man. Spending⁠ time with a man doesn't keep a man. You could have⁠ the best intentions, you could have the most sincere⁠ feelings, and you could be a good woman and you⁠ still wouldn't be able to keep a man because the only⁠ way to keep a man is if that man wants to be kept by⁠ you. You can't beg a man to stay with you. You can't⁠ love a man into loving you. With a man, you could⁠ tell he wants to be kept when the relationship gets⁠ hard and he does everything to fight for you because⁠ a man only fights for a girl he wants to belong to so, if⁠ he isn't fighting for you when things get hard, then⁠ that means he doesn't want to be kept by you⁠ anymore. The moral of this? Don't hold on to a man⁠ who doesn't want to be kept by you. No, you're not⁠ giving up on him. It's him who gave up on you, and⁠ it's you who shouldn't waste any more of your time⁠ than you already have. Know when it's time to let go,⁠ know when it's time to walk away, know when it's⁠ time for him to be unkept.

Why I've been away & how I feel about writing

It's been a while since I last updated this blog and I probably said something like this: "Hi, it's been a while or Hi, I'm back bla bla bla" countless time already here. I wish I could be more consistent in updating posts on this blog, I really do. I've done a lot of journaling throughout the years but never really post it here. Some days I would just grab a piece of paper and start writing with my pen instead of typing it and post it on my blog cause it's easier that way. For me, writing is a healing process. I write when I'm happy, I write when I'm sad, and I write even when I'm angry. Sometimes when I had an argument with my parents, when I couldn't be able to talk back to them, I write. I channel my emotions through writings a lot. I found this really helpful to fully understand myself and control my feelings. I get to say a lot without even worrying about how others might feel. I would let it all out and leave behind whatever resentment I have as I throw away those piece of papers. I guess this is why I always been good in expressing myself to other people, writings just helped me filtered out what needed to be said and what needed to stay on the paper (or left unsaid).

Now, this is something that I'm struggling with the most, I always have a problem with inconsistency. I'm trying to overcome it now by fixing up my routines (believe me when I said so, I've been reading and watching a lot of tips. I'm very determined!). I'm a person with a lot of great ideas and ambitions, but that's actually the problem, it's too much, and I'm drowning. Sometimes I would be super excited in the beginning but then ended up leaving it behind. I have this weird habit of obsession over something when I'm done obsessing, I would just go and never touch it again. I just realised it recently, whether they be game, song, food, you name it. In spite of the fact that I get easily distracted or bored with a lot of things, thank God, it never happened to how I feel about people. I would never get bored with people, maybe because people have emotions and they continually change. Anyway, this year resolution is just gonna be one thing and one thing only: be consistent with whatever it is I'm chasing! 

However, with a lot of things going on with my life from the past few years, it's just so hard to write in a proper manner because I know that it should be all about quality, not quantity. So why all of a sudden I'm here? Well, during this isolation time, world chaos with a deadly uninvited virus known as COVID-19 or coronavirus, it inspired me to write and update this blog again even though nobody really cares or visit my blog (hahaha). It's not that I have a lot of free time though, I'm just trying to find a way to keep me entertained still other than cooking and spending numerous amount of time with cleaning the house. I miss that sort of a relieving feeling I got when I'm able to put my thoughts in writings. Besides, I found myself tweeting a lot these days and started to feel that it's kind of unhealthy. So, rather than letting some unimportant rants out, I prefer to write some quality rants over here, I supposed. The current situations have been stressful enough, and today I wouldn't want to give in so many details to it. I'm sure that everyone had enough already with the news every day only to get updated on how things get worse day by day. The bottom line is, I'm just gonna sit here in front of my laptop, enjoy my quarantine, start writing more, and never take things for granted again. May the forces be with all of us during this outbreak of a pandemic disease. Amen.

So used to everything

I'm starting to slowly reach that point in my life where I'm so used to everything. People talking about me behind my back. People hating for no reason. People hurting and not caring what they did. Promises will be broken even though they were promised. There are people I used to talk to everyday that I will never speak to again. The truth is, I can't care anymore, it hurts me and it's too tiring. So I'm used to it.

KKN (Student Study Service) in Bank Indonesia Story

          I just finished my Student Study Service or also known as KKN in Indonesia and I could tell you a lot of things about it. For your information, KKN is a concept of linking academic study with the practical experience of community service. Since 1973, KKN has been integrated into the higher education curriculum for Indonesian universities, and it became one of higher education's threefold responsibilities besides teaching and conducting researches. Through the KKN program, the students are expected to share their knowledge and help local people to improve their lives and motivate them toward self-development. It usually runs between the 6th and 7th semester during the holiday. The length of KKN may vary depending on the universities' policy. In my university (Mulawarman University) this year we were required to complete the KKN program within two months.
          I feel so relieved that I have gone through all the troubles but I also have this feeling of sadness at the same time. Do you know that feeling when things are about to end and you've finally accept it? At first you were against it but as you get used to it, it is becoming a part of you. Don't get me wrong though, I chose to be where I was. But what happened after wasn't all that pretty. Well, here I am trying to sum up all the crazy things that happened during my KKN but 2 months is a long story to tell so I'm sorry if I might need to cut a lot of details in my story.
         I was doing my KKN at East Kalimantan province representative office of Bank Indonesia (The Central Bank of Indonesia). Unlike most other KKN that was supposed to be done somewhere in unknown village, mine was actually 70% spent in the office (with at least one program that are still in touch with the community through the office) and the rest of 30% spent in a community service. This story focuses on KKN in Bank Indonesia only. 

         It was no easy peasy to get accepted in Bank Indonesia. Out of thirteen groups, my group was the chosen one. The pressure was real, drama was all over the place. It was a really long process to get through. Thirteen groups submitted proposals but only 9 groups who made it. These 9 groups including us were given a task of creating a video about the Central Bank or the main function of Bank Indonesia in one week time, then we were gathered in one place to make an hour craft and gave a presentation using the craft as a media tool. Although the results ended up to be a life changing experience, this is also where all the drama began. We were all up to the phase where our friends treated us as enemies, haters using fake accounts commented on our Instagram pictures, been underestimated and talked about. Yeah, believe me, these were all happened to my group. Yet, I don't see why it's all necessary. I mean dude, can y'all relax? this is just KKN. Everyday in life we are competing with each other. Although I strongly believe that win or loose doesn't really matter, what matter the most is what we have learned from it. Unfortunately, not all people get that.
        My group itself is quite extraordinary. We had our differences, some of us are loud, some of us are quit, some of us are really sensitive and some are really like to play it safe. During 2 months of our KKN,  we argue almost every single day. Luckily, we made it until the end. Life lessons learned. We can't change people but we can always change ourselves, and if we all decide to do so, to change, then this world can become a beautiful, peaceful place. So guys, avoid as much conflicts as you can with your fellow friends for your own sake. In situation like this, you will know who your real friends are or at least get to know their real personality.

      Meet my group members! They seem nice. Believe me, they are actually nice. But imagine bringing 8 different people together with each different character and personalities to work together as a team in such an intense period of time. In business case, it might not be a bigger problem because they do already have a clear vision and ways on how to do it, besides they also get paid. The opposite goes to KKN. When this group was created, we didn't know each other very well. In fact, I only knew few of them very well, we had no idea about the program and everything was planned along the way. Everyone in my team has their own ambitions on how to do it and we went through a hell lot of things before we finally agreed on one thing.

Left to right: Bayu, Ridwan, Wahyu, Adnan

Left to right: Ratna, Bella, Putri (Me), Dwi

        Bank Indonesia has a really good reputation and as I told you earlier, it was no easy peasy to get accepted in here. I admit they have the best work ethic as far as I have seen when comparing it to the government office in Indonesia. People work 10 times harder here and they seemed to have a bunch of endless work. As KKN students we were actually treated as if we were an intern. Lucky for me and my team, we get to experienced KKN and internship at the same time. We were put in divisions (one to two of us for each division) to help and we had our own desks. Jobs may vary from each division. In some divisions, there was not much that we can do other than inputting data on the system but in other divisions we would make a call, deal with customer and analyse some economic issues.